Dissociation 

There are two of me in 

one. We don’t share space. 
I’m in. She’s out, a puff of
air with barely a boundary 
tethered with a bit of string.
She’s a finder of roles, an
actor of sorts, addicted to
scripting her answers. Her
words in my body, spending
itself in smiling. I
can watch my thoughts 
as they disappear to make 
way for what others want. 
It happens like breathing 
whenever I meet anyone, 
anywhere, here. Then she
floats above, watching. 
My inner self wants 
my body back. I don’t get 
confused. I am me, with 
opinions that sometimes 
leak, slipping out like mice 
at night, leaving my brain 
with nothing but an exercise
wheel that silently hints
at activity.