Patience

I wait, as we do, quite
often. I wait for my husband 
as he bounces around the 
city finding rugs and 
furnishings and bits of 
paper with pictures most
have never seen to make 
a stranger’s walls look
personal. I wait 
for the home where I can
see a tree instead of a 
crane, both making homes 
but one giving breath, as
well. I wait for dreams of 
expressing my self, and I wait 
for solid funding. I wait for
physical love. I wait for 
understanding and for 
things I don’t even know 
I need to ease my inward 
groaning because
there never isn’t groaning,
even if it’s only released 
through the soles of my 
feet. I wait to find out if you
love me. I wait to find out if
I love me. I wait and I 
think and I wonder if ever 
the waiting will end because
at some fantastic and 
mystical point I will finally
rest in knowing the who I 
am in me and you. 

Rejected Feelings

Rejected feelings, stick figures in a
full bodied world, find paltry places
in which to hide themselves, sitting
with their knees splayed out, their
elbows pointed arrows in the
directions I haven’t gone.  Angry
buggers, and who can blame them,
dodging the out-flung expletives I
hardly ever throw?  If I feel sorry 
and feed them, will they thrive, and 
then, what
will my penance
be?

Pain

Pain creates a haze
most times, as
though there is no
handle on the door and
the whole great world 
were a paper bubble
around itself, crinkling
frail with a few sirens
thrown in. That is, unless
it’s sharp, and the 
moon’s outline is a 
knife that cuts the 
inked sky and lets
the dragons in.

Misconceptions

I am a note in a barely flat
down from birth,
breathing loud and crying
quiet. Carried in circles,
the music of my silent 
self undressed, ashamed,
and just a little too
human to go back where
I came from. I
am an unmother with open
arms.  Define me, if
you dare but know I
carry your tears in my
pocket and they’ll 
return when your eyes
glass over. I
am a learner who
shares to love the thoughts
I feeling buy and make
for dinners, some 
healthier than others. 
I am no chef. I
just try to eat the
real stuff.  

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The Lie that She was Small

Her mother said she only ever
could rely on family, 
misty-eyed recollecting
isolation, the inescapable 
feeling she was a 
smaller species than others
she had met.  Her mother was 
taught by her parents, of course,
both of them djins released
from bottles, booming 
names with cloud-trumpets
and opinions pulled from sandstorms.
Magic was full bright but
sadly mathematical with them.
They felt small, too, probably 
taught by their parents. 

Their daughter
was different.  Of all the 
DNA combinations 
possible from two tempests,
her recipe twisted around 
itself and dreamed.  She was 
flowers in a music garden, white
eyelet and patent leather shoes,
unruly red hair, magic 
filtered soft through the evening.
That was her destiny, poor girl.  
To them, she was smaller still, though 
she could bellow a pipe organ
beautifully. In the end it was all djin
air and it made its way home 
to the bottle.